Pasasalamat!

You were one of Dad's confidante. You've got my Mom's back during the time she needed help! You were never selfish especially with my siblings. My family felt your genuine concern for us; probably because you're the one who better understood how hard it is to go on without our main man. And you loved your brother so much that you extended your love for him to the people who matter in his life. 

I certainly don't share the warm relationship you had with my siblings and cousins but I wanted you to know how grateful I am for all of the times you rescued us. I will be forever thankful for all of the things you've done for my Mom and my siblings. Thank you for watching over them while I was away. Thank you for always seeing things in a larger picture, for trying to understand that we were brought up in a totally different setting hence the way I view some things are opposite on how you guys see it. 

I wasn't able to see you on your remaining days. I was too stubborn to pay you a visit just because I am not comfortable being in our place there. Honestly, it was never home to me. We've got a lot of history right there. Anyhow, I hope wherever you are right now, you'll get to read this. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!!! THANK YOU FOR PROTECTING US THE WAY PAPA DID!!! 

Salamat. Salamat. Salamat!

Hanggang sa muli  nating paglalakbay. 

May you rest in God's eternal kingdom together with the people you love who traveled the road to His promise land long before you. Have a blast in heaven Kakang Domeng. You will be missed! Your kindness will always be remembered by the people whose lives you've touched and whose journey you've shared :) Till we meet again! Muli SALAMAT sa pagbahagi mo ng iyong buhay sa amin!!!

Trip Down Memory Lane And A Little Reality Check!

So my condo loves and I had this weird game early this morning. You know how you can easily track those photos and wall posts from ages ago in Facebook?!!!! And once you hit the "LIKE" button on your friend's photo from a couple of years back (which he/she probably wouldn't want to see) it will automatically be shown on his/her other friends' news feed. I know you get the picture. hahahha!

We were killing each other liking posts and photos which we probably forgotten or choose to forget when it suddenly made me conscious about what can be seen on my Timeline from couple of years ago. It was crazzzyyyyy!!! We were teasing each other on how we look and how silly our wall statuses were :P

After all the mess from this morning's ridiculous game, I took some time to browse again and read what I posted. I can't find the exact word to describe how I feel as I scan my own timeline. It's like I am reading from someone else's wall. It seems the girl who posted is a stranger to me now.

She was idealistic, less jaded and a firm believer that her dreams will do come true!!!! And it hit me, that girl haven't experience what its like to be out in the cold. Sure she had her fair share of rejections. She had her own battle. She had to face the unknown at some point. Yet as soon as she had her taste of what they call the "real world" everything she went through seems not enough ........

Now, as I look back, the girl knows better. Must be because she knows how it feels like to fail and to get back as soon as she can. Or maybe she realized that it will take tons of hard work before you get to where you really want to be and cliche is not just a cliche. Years had gone and she barely noticed it. She met new people, been into places she's never been to. She found herself in the middle of situations she never knew would happen to her; tried things she swore she would never try! She cried more than she did before. She became a disappointment and failed many times in the past two years. Luckily, she's still standing and very much alive. As a matter of fact, she feels more alive now than she felt back then.

She's still idealistic, her dreams basically are still the same. Some of the few things that changes are  she's tougher, wiser and stronger (at least that's what she thought she is now! hahaha!) and she's so ready for what life has in store for her. She's less afraid now if things don't go the way she think they would be. More adaptive I must say and she learn to exhaust half the letters of the alphabet when planning. PLAN A, B, C will never be enough!!! HAHA!!!

I guess she will be fine, she'll do just beyond fine, she will be bound to soar into heights!!!! Habits die hard, she is still the same girl from couple of years back, only wiser! :)